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Days away I still feel you touching me, changing me

and considerately killing me.

16 July
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Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance
Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance
And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more
So I blame this town, this job, these friends
The truth is it's myself
And I'm trying to understand myself
and pinpoint where i am
By the time I get things figured out
I've change the whole damn plan
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Talking shit about a pretty sunset
Blanketing opinions that i'll probably reget soon
I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it
My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself

Talking Shit About a Pretty Sunset- Modest Mouse

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This is the best song ever, by the way.

It’s coming through is alive.
What’s holding up is a mirror.
But what’s singing songs is a snake
Looking to turn this piss to wine.

They’re both totally void of hate,
But killing me just the same.
The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been.
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again.

And I feel this coming over like a storm again.
Venomous voice, tempts me,
Drains me, bleeds me,
Leaves me cracked and empty.
Drags me down like some sweet gravity.

I am too connected to you to
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,
And considerately killing me.

Without the skin,
Beneath the storm,
Under these tears
The walls came down.

And the snake is drowned and
As I look in his eyes,
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of those times.
I could have cried then.
I should have cried then.

And as the walls come down and
As I look in your eyes
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of the times
I have died
And will die.
It’s all right.
I don’t mind.

I am too connected to you to
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,
And considerately killing me.

Tool - H.

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Smeared black ink
Your palms are sweaty
And I'm barely listening
to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering
what's buried underneath
Where I am, where I am

I'll wear my badge
S vinyl sticker with big
block letters adherent to my chest
That tells your new friends
I am a visitor here.
I am not permanent
And the only thing keeping me dry is
Where I am, where I am

You seem so out of context
in this gaudy apartment complex
A stranger with your door key
explaining that I am just visiting
And I am finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving
D.C. sleeps alone tonight

The district sleeps alone tonight
after the bars turn out their lights
And send the autos swerving
into the loneliest evening
And I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving

District Sleeps Alone Tonight - The Postal Service


So I guess this is where I tell you about myself, eh? My name is Megan. I like reading… give me a good book and I will love you. My favorite class is philosophy, not because I want to have my teacher's babies, but I really do love it. I also adore movies. I am a Disney kid at heart. I'm quite picky. I care too much about things that don't matter and too little about those that do. I'm trying right now to learn that no matter how many tears I shed it won't get me back what I want. It's a hard lesson to learn. I play bass guitar. It's fun, I stopped for awhile but I've been playing a lot more lately. I'm really into psychology and I love kids. That's why I think child psychologist would be a good career choice for me. We'll see though. In the winter I love to snowboard, it's awesome.I can be quite moody and anti-social though, so good luck if you decide to read my journal. You may encounter some things you don't like, or just dislike my entries in general... but then again this is my journal, so I will write what I please.


::Favorite Books::

Catcher in the Rye
This Lullaby
I Was a Teenage Faerie
The Perks of Being a Wallflower
The Great Gatsby
The Lovely Bones
The Named
Narnia Chronicles

and many more.


Life as a House
Donnie Darko
Kill Bill
Old School
Pirates of the Caribbean
Sleep Hollow
Edward Scissorhands
American Pie 1 & 2
American Wedding
40 Days and 40 Nights
The Goonies
Resevoir Dogs
American History X
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
and Office Space.

Disney: The Lion King
Beauty and the Beast
the Brave Little Toaster
Lady and the Tramp… oh heck I love them all.

Concerts/Shows I've been to.

Taking Back Sunday // Saves the Day
Brand New // Hot Rod Circuit
Modest Mouse // the Walkmen
Green Day // Blink182 // Jimmy Eat World
San Francisco Warped Tour 2003 [the Used, Rancid, Thrice, Glassjaw, Pennywise, Ataris, etc..]
Sac and SF Warped Tour 2004 [Alkaline Trio, TBS, Bad Religion, NOFX, NFG, Story of the Year, Thursday, Coheed and Cambria, etc..]
Lollapalooza 2003 [ A Perfect Circle, Incubus, Audioslave, etc..}
Taking Back Sunday // Fall Out Boy // Matchbook Romance
Rufio // Millencolin // Ten Foot Pole
Sparta // Incubus
The Getup Kids
Motion City Soundtrack // Maxeen
Billy Talent // MXPX
Blink 182 // No Doubt
The City Drive
All American Rejects // Hoobastank
Green Day // New Found Glory // Sugarcult
Finch // Vendetta Red
The Mars Volta