So, I figured that I should write a blog about my life since I've moved to Chico. I've already done a lot of growing up in the month that I've been here. It has no order and is probably going to be rambly and all over the place, as I am just writing whatever comes to mind as I think of it. The first weekend that I moved, Eric was here. That was so much fun, I already miss my best friend so much. On August 22nd, I went to my classes for the first time. So far I've discovered that math is still really hard, I still love psychology, not all child development classes are fun, and my English teacher forgot that we are not in high school anymore. It’s good though, for the most part I am satisfied with my classes. Also, I live in Craig Hall… which has been an interesting experience to say the least. The food here is alright, but the best is late night dining… which has everything from chicken tender ranch wraps to mozzarella sticks to a peanut butter bacon burger. The internet, however, makes me so angry. It is the worst internet of my LIFE. GRRRRRR. Moving on, one of my favorite parts of Craig Hall is that we can rent out movies for free. It’s pretty awesome. I have 3 room mates, one in my room, and the other two in the room next to ours. The 4 of us share one bathroom. My roommate’s name is Abby aka Abby Cakes, and Jasmine and Camille are the other two. I really like my roommates a lot, and we all get a long really well. I laugh so hard when I’m with them sometimes, it’s so silly. In fact we got a noise violation one night because we were doing our nightly situps (we need to get back to doing those ASAP!) and we started to have a giggle attack just as security was walking down the hall so they wrote us up, haha. But it’s good times. Though I feel that the three of them have a better connection with each other than they do with me. There’s nothing I can really do about that though, so yeah. In my classes I have made friends as well, in my English class I sit next to this guy named Ryan and he’s really cool. We make fun of our English teacher together because he looks like Kip from Napolean Dynamite. In my Math class we have formed a clique and it’s pretty fun. We’re the A-Squad… so nerdy I know. Ben and Stacey are my main friends in that class, it’s what gets me through the horribleness that is math. In Child Development (worse teacher ever & most boring) I hang out with Krystle (who also lives in Craig Hall) and Brandon. And finally, in Psychology, I have become closest to Zeni, who is one of the nicest girls I have met in a long time. Here in Craig Hall I’ve made a really good friend named Tom, and he brought me a movie today when I was sick which was super nice of him. As most of you know, before moving to Chico I’ve already had a great deal of friends here. I wasn’t sure how that was going to change once I moved here, and really it hasn’t. It is very weird that I see them every weekend and sometimes more, though. I was hoping that Brady Face and I would have gotten to spend more time together since we live in the same town, but it just hasn’t happened. Even though I’ve only been in Chico for a month, I already fell for someone and got hurt pretty badly. What I had forgotten is that Chico is a small, small town… and that I eventually was bound to run into him. And run into him I did, on Saturday at a party. He pretty much pretended I didn’t exist. But it really made me examine some things and come to conclusions, which is actually very positive. I mostly said all of them when I was talking to my Jenn online, so I’ll post part of the conversation.
xXjetBLACKflames: I was dating this guy here
xXjetBLACKflames : I don't know if I told you about him
xXjetBLACKflames: but he screwed me over. and then I saw him at a party on saturday and he pretended I didn't exist
xXjetBLACKflames: I realized that I don't want to have to deal with that so I'm just gonna hang out for now and not worry about dating someone or being in a relationship
IplayH20polo: no you didnt
IplayH20polo: but i think that will be good for you
IplayH20polo: it will make you realize what you really have
IplayH20polo: when you get it
When I first moved here I was very concerned about how my feelings for my ex boyfriend (or whatever he was) were going to play out. At first it was extremely difficult for me because I was still so head over heels. But now I have also realized some things, which I also said to Jenn, so here’s another part of the conversation.
xXjetBLACKflames: I don't hate him at all
xXjetBLACKflames: me and him had our time I guess, and now it's time for me to move on for real
IplayH20polo: i cant wait till you get a boyfriend that is better then him x 5000
IplayH20polo: i will be very excited
xXjetBLACKflames: I will too
IplayH20polo: hes going to be so hott too
xXjetBLACKflames: haha maybe in a couple years I'll find him, right now though it seems to be the consensus among college boys that they do not want a girlfriend
xXjetBLACKflames: which I guess I understand, seeing as they think more with their penis than anything else
IplayH20polo: haha true that
xXjetBLACKflames: but I am okay for now, not really worried about it anymore.
Something that has been extremely hard for me is being away from my seester, Hannah. I love her and miss her so much, I get to see her on Friday so that will be good. Right now we are both really sick, funny how that still happens regardless of whether we are in the same city. I seriously am so sick though right now, I have been for a little over a week and a half. It sucks reaaallyy bad. But my Abby Cakes puts up with it, thank goodness. I hope I don’t end up getting everyone sick. Let’s see… what else have I been up to. Elliot, Ross, and Jon throw a keg every Thursday, and it’s usually a blast. I have met a lot of cool people, and gotten to know some even better. Good job boys, keep it up. I have seen two movies. I went with Tom, his awesome friend Paige, and his roommate Kyle to go see the 40 Year Old Virgin. That my friends, was hilarious. Then a few days ago I saw Corpse Bride with Jon and LC. Oh how I <3 those kids. And how I love Tim Burton. I went to a Graffiti Party the other night and it was so much fun, one of my favorites so far. Everyone wears a white shirt and you bring a sharpie and write all over eachother. My other two favorite parties were the one that Kristen had, and one of the kegs that Elliot threw that was a blast. I am gaining so much weight it is ridiculous. I go out to eat all the time. Camille will say let’s go to Burger Hut or Alec will suggest teriyaki, or I just can’t resist the urge to go to pita pit. Mmm, so tasty. I’m going home this weekend, and then the following Wednesday, Camille and I are driving to San Diego/Riverside. She is going to visit her boyfriend and I am going to visit my friend Bryan. We’re both looking forward to that, it should be good times. Fall Out Boy is coming to Chico on November 4th, and Mallory is planning on coming up here. Also my Nikki is coming, too! It is going to be awesome. Hannah and her loverrrr Jonathan are coming up for Halloween, which I am so so so so so excited about. I am going to be a purple faerie, I’ve decided. This blog is really, really long… but mostly it’s for me so that I can remember my college experience when I grow older. I want to print out all my LJ entries from the past and make a book. If my parents ever did find that book though… oh man it would be terrible. Haha. Life is so much less stressful now that I live away from them. I mean I love them of course, but even now they find any way they can to take control of my life. I am just happy that they are doing it from 150 miles away. My Dad called me to say I love you for no reason… something I can’t even really ever imagine him doing. It really made me happy. I also have spent a lot of time with Aubrey, who is one of my better friends here. Or so I’d like to think anyway. I can always call her just to hang out, or to grab a bite to eat, or even just talk about anything. It’s really comforting. Ben and Chad are awesome as well. I feel like with me and Tyler there’s some sort of barrier that he put up. I mean we have no problems and we’re friends, but I just think that it might take time before there’s no weirdness at all. The other night me, Elliot, Camille, and Roxanne saw Jimmy Eat World and Number One Gun. I thought they did an excellent job! It was really good. The encore that Jimmy Eat World did was phenomenal. They played Hear You Me, a new song, and then Sweetness. I hang out at the frat house a lot, which I guess I pretty much expected. I don’t know, sometimes it’s weird. I say to myself all the time that I want to branch out and not always think I have to hang out with Alec and everyone, but then in the end I realize it’s where I have the most fun and where I usually want to be. It’s only been a month or so, so I guess I’m still getting adjusted to the changes. Especially though with Alec. I mean it’s really awesome to have him around all the time because I feel very safe with him and I know I can turn to him for anything. A few weeks ago I had an incident and he was there for me so much that without him I couldn’t have gotten through it. But I do feel like I am inferior to some of the girls that he is so close to here in chico, not that it’s his fault or anything. It just sort of happens sometimes. Anyway, back to school… this year is so much different. I mean I really messed up half my soph year and half of my junior year in high school. Senior year I did well, but I still could have done better. Here I am so much more motivated. I do most of my homework with plenty of time before it’s due instead of procrastinating. I hope it doesn’t start to fade because I am sick right now and less energetic and motivated. It’s a good feeling though, I studied hard for my math test and did well. I took my time on my English papers and received all A’s. It’s just a really good feeling. Like ha, mom and dad I told you I could do it. And even more to myself. “Hey Megan, you’re a lot smarter than you think and you can do it despite that your parents have had such little faith in you in the past.” That’s the type of things that run through my head all of the time with every decision I make. The one thing that I feel very unaccomplished about is the fact that I have no job. Even though it seemed like I didn’t like my job, I realize now how much I loved it. I miss the kids, I miss getting a paycheck, I miss feeling productive. It’s really hard to find a job that doesn’t involve food here in Chico. But I really need one, so hopefully I’ll get to that soon. I want to hang out more with Kristen and get to know her better, I can definitely see the uniqueness that Alec sees in her. Chico has made me even boy crazier, I’ve had a few pretty big crushes, but true to the meganisms of life… they are the boys that I cannot have. I’m glad that I’m gonna take a step back from all of that though. Okay well I’m sure that no one is actually going to read this all the way through, but I think that is enough for now. Maybe in another month I’ll write again. Overall I am pretty happy and doing pretty well. I have a lot of new friends and I get to stay friends with the old ones, too. I can’t wait until I get to see Eric again, he is always going to be my best friend no matter how many miles away. Byeeee.
Oh yeah, and I definitely can’t post a blog without pics so here’s a bunch of random ones from so far.
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